16th of Jan 2023

Today is the day that I plan to come home from my university. To be honest I am so excited because it's been 2 weeks since I'm going back. So yeah, I'm very much excited since yesterday, after decided and confirming that I'm going back. Then, the time came when they picked me up from my college. I'm actually running down after solat but when I reached at the car the atmosphere was little bit off... I don't know, I don't know how to describe. I thought that they probably tired so I asked if I should drive but he said it was okay, so he drive and I'm throw my trash in the garbage house and get inside the car. After not more than 5 minutes they asked me why I want to going home and how long is my holiday. The minute they asked me that question I feel unwanted and regretful for my decision to come home. I feel like I shouldn't come back and I should go back to my university tomorrow.. since I have arrive. Seriously I feel like crying right now. Yeah I actually didn't have time off from classes, I actually have two online classes tomorrow and the classes for the next day (Wednesday) are postpone to Friday. So I only have this time to come home because in CNY holiday I probably won't come back because I have to study for my final and I have assignments to complete. Why not come back and study at home? Well there are long story for that. Anyway, I really want to stay at my college and never return right now. 😭😭😭